I lost something.
A very important part of me.
The worst part is that I probably never had it.
He came into my life a cool breeze
Everyone knows that you can’t catch air
— but I’m a fool and I tried.
And just when I thought I had him,
he slipped right through my fingers — just like air.
When I close my eyes
I can feel his arms wrapped around me,
grabbing my hand and pointing at Orion.
I can feel his breath on my neck,
his body stilling my cold shivers.
I replay that moment every time I blink.
I heard him whisper to open my heart;
I felt him open his.
And for the first time in a long time,
I felt safe.
Every fear that I had,
Every insecurity vanished
when he told me he loved me.
So soft. So low. So gentle. So real.
The moment magnified
I could hear the fish swim in the river below
I could see the fragment of glass on the moon
And everything went silent.
So quiet that you could hear my breathless response.
I wanted to cry
I wanted to scream at the moon and blame God for all these.
But then like air – it disappeared.
His breathing got heavy
I saw flickers in his eyes
And within a matter of seconds,
My world came crashing down.
His confessions cut me like shrapnel.
And even though his thoughts hadn’t become actions
I couldn’t help but feel like I had lost him.
It hurt so bad. So bad.
He turned the tables on me with his delicate slyness;
made me feel as though I had committed the ultimate crime.
And what did I do? I let him.
He made my eyes melt,
my ears bleed,
my heart ache.
And just like a cool sudden breeze — he was gone.
He removed a pebble from my foundation
Collapsed the greatest pyramid in Egypt
And after the dust cleared,
and the air had returned to it’s resting stage
I was left alone in ruins.
I was gone